New Year's Resolution

OH YEAH!

It's not about RESOLUTIONS

 it's about new year, and I am pretty sure its gonna be a good year 

with NEW START!!

And I wish that to everybody 2! Make it better than the last one!

Desire of no feeling state of mind

Feelings,

"No one who has stayed in Sahara for a while is quite the same as when he came... Once a man has been under the spell of the vast, luminous, silent country, no other country is strong enough for him, no other surroundings can provide the supremely satisfying sensation of exsisting in the midst of something that is absolute"

Their Heads are Green and their Hands are Blue, Paul Bowles

Pet me !

I love this dog, I suppose that mine will get sthg like that ;)

BTW 2 morrow I am going to France for 10 days, wish me luck!

All those chapters

All those chapters we are creating and all those people who are coming and going away...

I've found 2day the letter I wrote during the summer 2011, on barcelona coast crying. The letter to my ex bf....saying goodbye to him as my lover and saying hello as a just friend, would that ever be possible? ... 8 pages of all feelings I had, 8 pages of the sincere confession...

It is so nice to read it now, all over again, remeber all those feelings

Yes I was reading that 2day with a tear in my eye.

Mr M. was my love, first, big love and I knew even then that we could not be 2gether...sad story, great memories!!! Wish him all the best!

Sometimes we should let some people to be only great memories...why is not that so easy?! 

Not immediately but DEFINITELY

I will succeed sooner or later!

Yesterday I realized that it cannot be that strangers believe in me more than myself....

During my job interview the recruiter said me that I am 

                                                                                           THE PERFECT CANDIDATE

cause

I have strong interpersonal and langauge skills and the look and I am extremely talented!

So nice to hear that even of only one person thinks so...

Let's wait for results....maybe someone else would believe in that!

And that is not only about work , I ve started healthy lifestyle again. So DEFINITELY!

Mean Princess Avatar

I love it!!!

Karma hm or maybe good luck?!

GOOD PIC for a GOOD day!

Is everything gonna be all right? I hope so! So far so good so keep your fingers crossed!

"Kto nie ma szczęścia w milości ten ma w kartach" , so maybe at least I will become a businesswoman!

Making Mistakes ;)

Everyone makes mistakes....let's just learn from them.

Btw. Finally I do not sleep alone and I have someone to love me, unconditionaly! That's the good reason to buy a dog.

Still with heart beating..

I know I should hate you but I just CANNOT!

"Two feet standing on a principle

two hands longing for each others warmth

cold smoke seeping out of colder throats

darkness falling, leaves nowhere to go

It's spiraling down

biting words like a wolf howling

hate is spitting out each other's mouths

but we're still sleeping like we're lovers

Still with feet touching

Still with eyes meeting

Still our hands match

Still with hearts beating"

Song "Still" of Daughter

WE fall IN love?!

NEVER HAD WANTED TO

I never had wanted to FALL IN LOVE

and definietly

I never had wanted to FAIL IN LOVE

So we FALL IN LOVE

nope, we FAILED IN LOVE

Motivation, determination, success

I CAN DO IT!

So far I used to have a loads of things I really wanted, lets say I am a lucky one...at least sometimes.

Now again I wanto prove MYSELF that I CAN DO IT.

Lets hope I am strong enough

If someone else can do it, i can do it 2

Wish me luck...

Threesome in the Neverland

Ok so finally I've watched Peter Pan

I suppose it was the first time in my life, and I saw the original one(1953), recommended!

What a strange threesome was over there: Peter, Wendy and Tinker Bell

and as a naive person I am I believed that he would leave Neverland to be with Wendy.

Anyway he is very quick to point out how great he is....hmmm have I ever heard that before?

Ah I thought that my fav Peter Pan quote qould be that of saying goodbye ..

But actually I fall in love with this one <3

So lets dream!

So where is my happy ending?

Ok i suppose i am masochist person, I like complications and I hate when everything is easy

but 

Everybody has own limits, limits of patience

so

where (the fuck) is my happy ending?

But I know that changes are coming and coming very soon !!!!

I need a new job, new flat and all OLD friends around....ah and SUN pls!

Not such an usual fairy tale.

I wanted to be a Princess    ....    right

I am the Mean Princess      ....      Let's say so...

So I have my own fairy tale but not as I wished it to be

Mean Princess and Peter Pan.....our fairy tale...

If somone had told me that my fascination of "never grow up pic" from Peter Pan would become so crucial and meaningfull so soon in not such a positive meaning I would never admit.

 I was even thinking of having a tattoo like that if I would like to have one.

And yep I supposed to be the female Peter Pan but not in the worst state I suppose, I will be growing up I suppose....

And he is a Peter Pan, almost perfect, clear version of Peter Pan sindrome....just strange that I have not thought of that...it was so obvious! I would have known that before.

And ok it's not the fault of the person that he/she is a Peter Pan, circumstanes and family creates that so yes he is ....and two Peter Pans together could be too much...

I am feeling lost again....forget would be the best....but I've been there before and did not work so far.

Greetings from Neverland

So again be carefull what you wishing cause you just might get it.

Everything would be different now..

If i...

Always that if I

If I had been more beautiful.sllimmer...smarter

...if i had taken other decisions...

...made other choices,,,,

I would be different...

everything would be different...

and I could be in any other place...

but I m here!

and I need you now...

and I need new decisions

HOW PATHETIC....

let;s organise my life...from the beginning...OH YES I'VE BEEN THERE BEFORE...

I m gonna miss it!

Oh yes I ll be missing all that stuff

friends
Warsaw
places
everything...

Warsaw by night

Again moving out

changes.....

And every place reminding me of something, someone

smells, places, songs, MEMORIES!

Maturity

As I am mature or better to say as I have problems with being mature ;)

1) I've learned that I cannot make someone love me. All I can do is stalk him and hope he panics and give in

OH YES!

Thnks to Kasieńka for pic ;)...made my day!

Pls don't go, just stay!

If I never say goodbye it's because I do not want you to leave me.

Never grow up

Oh yes! Little princess is not growing up....

Dunno if its so good, but whatever....I ll think about it 2morrow....

Its raining, but its Friday so birthday party time!

cravings for TRAVELS

plans..plans...plans..

2day I should know proper plan for my summer!

 p.s. I've always dreamed of pink vespa!

Summer plan!

Decisions made

and I m stressed ;)

So firstly Spain , then defence of my thesis and then surfing I hope...

Roses, Spain - that's where I m gonna work...

My very own worcamp ;)

my city

I simply love my city

Break of dawn....coming home..

and 2morrow wedding day!

Come fly with me

Pues sigo siendo niña ingenua 

And I felt the amazing feeling of flying and I fell down and YES I will fly again and again and again....

BOHEMIAN life

That's exactly what I should have-Bohemian life

and just be-The bohemian Princess

And my small drawing for 2day:

Sahara desert, Morocco 

satisfy my soul

My motivation is getting lower and lower

Not good at all

So

btw. cool swimming suit

vs.

Summer moods.....

brokenhearted

I rly hope that

Even if I know that probably will be contrary,,,,

He was brokenhearted before so why he needs to do that to others?!

Sunday dreams

This is my Sunday dream!

At least I am not melancholic 2day

2morrow my portuguese exam time so KEEP UR FINGERS CROSSED!

Be a star and fall in love!

Instead of studying I am making new plans.

Yesterday I spent amazing evening with my bff and that's a result:

Firstly 

Then the thing is about not complaining and just be satisfied with what u have. Simply be happy and enjoy.  Till u cannot change sthg, accept it.

Explore the place where u are!

Warsaw by night-EXPLORE! 

That is a perfect spot for drinking, perfect view-Vistula river, National Stadium and the Poniatowksi bridge!

The city center of Warsaw! View from Narutowicz square (almost)

The Palace of Culture and Science! Warsaw of course!

"Warszawa da się lubić, Warszawa da się lubić

Tutaj szczęście można znaleźć

Tutaj serce można zgubić"

And now its time for studying: portuguese exam on Monday!

And my new bf for inspiration

Royal weekend

Oh yes its Friday so? 

Actually does not mean a lot, so far its busy

First of all: my piece of art for the Portuguese literature...yes I know sounds strange and it's strange!

Fernando Pessoa em Lisboa, made by me ;)

2day was the last day of classes-hopefully the LAST DAY of classes ever for me! I'm about finishing the second studies and I can say that for now- I rly do not want more! So lets hope I will pass all exams!

Now I am going for the portuguese theather ;) and then wine with my bff! Thats what I'm craving! WINEEEE

So

Yes Lets made it a PRINCESS weekend! full of studying....and WINE!

Regards ;)

Stalker mode on/off

When you see things you were never meant to see!

and 

When you know things you were never meant to know!

You are getting to the island you did not really want to get and there is no coming back. U ll stay there forever!

First of all I recommend this movie! strange story...strange feelings.....

This part Kaś.U will understand perfectly!

"I don't wanna let you down

but I gotta let you go

don't want talk about what we did or we did not...

It's nothing left to do 

It's nothing left to say

never really lived here anyway "

Rachida Jones "You do not know" 

My life could be different know if I.....always that if I.......so does not matter! I know what i know and there is no way back from that point.

Use it wisely!

And now something for Kasieńka , special tribute for you as I promised:

I will be bored without ur stories of "our eme efe world". So lets keep complicating our lifes!

un cuento breve de una princesa.

        We were just a short story....just few short chapters.

The nice little story that stays in mind forever, that will be REreaded 1000 times, the story when inside appears another story-one where little princess is born. Thanks for that and let's hope this little princess'll grow up one day...

I just hope at least once in those 3 small meetings we had the oportunity to have I meant to you something, at least 50% what you meant to me.

I wonder if I still cross your mind , cause for me YES it happens all the time!

And I am naive and I still believe we will see each other again...I just hope I ll grow up till then!
                                                                                   or better : u ll grow up my almost lover!

INVINCIBLE

Does your life look as you wished it for?!

Nothing to complain about or better said: stop complaining, start acting!

U want your life to be somehow as u wish...MAKE IT 2 BE LIKE THAT!

2day I know I can do/have anything. It's raining, I have exams and no concentration to study but I know everything s gonna be all right, just like that. Just feeling this way!

My life, my world, my choices....I WILL MAKE MY LIFE TO LOOK AS I WISH!

best regards ;)

Silly games

Yeah yeah yeah right, I ll let myself to be overwhelmed by expectations

Less expectations, less disappointments. I know I should keep them extremely low and believe me I keep trying , I m just not succeed in that so far. But I ll one day.

Other rhetorical question: Why cannot I just fall in love with normal, easy-going guy?!

Maybe my destiny has freaky plan for my life...so keep going!

Chances.....Choices...Changes...

So make your choice!

As usual I am thinking more and more about my future and possibilities i have....so many possibilities not so many decisions....

so I hope that destiny ll help me. I ll apply for few internships, jobs, voluntaries and we ll see where I get the placement if I.....

Optimistic mode ;)

I think it's totally truth btw

In my case it's like that...I m kind of loosing myself and especially my sense of morality but that is a different story...

Good night!

Memories...patchwork of amazing moments

Niedziela - melancholijny dzień wspomnień

My birthday trip-april 2013 

I'm carving travels!!!!

                                                          Italy, Pisa

Merzouga, Morocco

                                                 Barcelona, Spain